World famous fashion model and Hollywood actress Cara Delevingne confessed that she had serious depression and even suicidal thoughts in her teen years.
"All the time I was second-guessing myself, saying something and then hating myself for saying it. I didn't understand what was happening apart from the fact that I didn't want to be alive anymore," the model said in an interview with The Edit magazine.
She confessed that she could never forgive herself when she failed at something or made a mistake.
"I didn't feel like I was ever good enough. The fact I couldn't do as well as other people made me hate myself. And you're made to feel that once you get a mark, like a C, that's your mark in life; that's you as a human being. That really sat with me for a long time," Delevingne said.
The young woman also added that she always wanted people to love her and she hated herself for being depressed.
"I turned my anger on myself, I was wounded by myself for being depressed," the model confessed.
Luckily, the dark times seem to be in the past. Today, Delevingne feels self-confident and happy.
"I know it sounds really stupid, but I relied too much on love, too much on other people to make me happy, and I needed to learn to be happy by myself," she said. "So now I can be by myself, I can be happy. It took me a long time," Delevingne concluded.
The model was featured in numerous fashion shows for Dolce & Gabbana, Fendi and Stella McCartney and appeared on the cover of Vogue and other fashion magazines.
The 25-year-old has also had success in Hollywood. Her major roles include Margo Roth Spiegelman in Paper Towns (2015) and the Enchantress in Suicide Squad (2016).
